maikiritori

randomness

2009-10-15T10:13:30Z

Bouncing roundnround, updownupdown
Caddy corner, sidewinders and curveballs, flashingdancingprancingflailing. Cupcakesnstakes, friends and movies, latenights early mornings. Highlowhighlow. That's a goodnight, peacefultomorrow, wonderfultoday,happymorning,playfulyesterday.

are you ready?

2009-10-01T00:14:03Z

Frail and wan. Fierce and savage. A knife edge balance, precarious tightrope walk, death at any wrong step. Humanity's Titanic testfailure. Warnings abound, ways to fix what was broken, mending ways, saving lives. All thrown to the wayside. Humanity's Herculean testfailure. Shots in the night, deathmiasma creeping silently through cracks, 'round corners. Unsuspecting peace-ables fall, fall, fall. Ring 'round the rosie/pockets full of posies/ we all are dead. Reapers Grimm are in all of us. New worlds created in each new settlement, new territories staked every season. Return the the huntergatherer in all of us. The future isn't ours, never was. Sad, sad tears, falling like rain, like waterfalls, like typhoons, tsunami, Noah's flood. High ground isn't what's going to save us. Faith isn't going to save our souls, soothe our hearts, heal our wounds. Our world's changing, plan, plan, are you planning? When the time comes, grab your crap, whatever's on your back. Run, run, flee, take flight. Your plan might save you, but run anyway. Winters are hard, springs won't be fun, summers are all work and fall has no room for play. But it's coming, coming, comingcomingcomingcoming. Are you ready?

eternal time

2009-09-15T01:29:30Z

time, eternal time. flowing forever forward, splashing back, changing course.
time, constantly by my side. time. i see it, smell it, touch it, taste it.
She's by my side, my companion until the day comes when She and i must pa rt ways.
i see that too, my death. it is inevitable, and No, i don't mind. Sister,Sister, Sister. don't cry. there's too much to do, don't mourn me now.
She won't wait for you, or for anyone else. my eternal time.
rushing ahead, turning back, jumping and skipping. my time eternal, she has plans, yet never set in stone. Her liquid plans form and reform, influenced by and influencing others.

cherry chips n coke cons

2009-07-10T22:07:11Z

I never liked your cherry chips, your cherry chips, your cherry chips.
You always loved my coke cons, my coke cons, my coke cons.
I hated the smell of your cherry breath, cherry breath, cherry breath.
You liked the flavor of my coke kisses, coke kisses, coke kisses.
Laughing quietly and gently touching, our cherries and cokes mingled under the flying black sky.
Crying softly and breaking slowly, our gazes locked and clashed under bright sunlit skies.
Sad sad smiles and happy happy frowns, dying slowly together in the twilight of our time.
I never liked your cherry chips, cherry chips, cherry chips.

My Tormentor

2009-06-22T19:58:35Z

You sneer as you tower above me, I refuse to let you see my fear.
Your eyes are dead, my pulse beats in my throat.
Your laugh has an edge, it sends chills down my spine.
You tie me up, pinching soft skin.
You tie me down, pulling sore muscles.
You tie me, bind me, and finally brand me. There is nothing for me to hide.
You smell my fear, relishing in the high it gives you.
You gag me, I'm begging for release.
You blind me, I'm begging for relief.
You bring others to see, the broken and bound puppetme. My tears falling like rain, you bathe in them.
I lie in a lifeless heap, you're through with me.
I crawl within myself, to escape you, my tormentor. I see you everyday, reminding me of how I've been made dirty. I'll never be the same, thanks to you, my tormentor.

When We Meet Again

2009-05-30T22:13:47Z

When we meet again, it will be on the other side.
When wee met again, time will have passed for me.
When we meet again, you'll be there to greet me as I close my eyes that last time.

The pain I feel now will never leave me, nor will it lessen. I will grow accustomed to the pain and when we meet again, I know it will vanish.

I wait for the time we'll meet again. You and I will laugh again, the way we used to. Things will finally be right and whole, the way they're supposed to be.

On the other side, we will meet again.

never re membered

2009-05-11T08:59:27Z

I'm sorry. Who're you? I don't know you, I'm sure of it...Please don't go! Waitwaitwait!!! I don't know you, but you feel nice. Warm, like a summer breeze. I want you to stay, please? Let's shoot the shit and kick the can. I want to know you. Stopstopstop. I don't know you, but I'd like to. We can explore the town and each other. I want to have you close. I feel as if we met before, but that can't be. My town is small, I'd know if I met you. The gang would agree. We never knew your nameface. We never would forget. We'd always remember. Alwaysalwaysalways. We would remember.

tralalalalalaland

2009-04-26T22:13:04Z

Tra la la
Tra la la land
Tra la la land flamingo's
Tra la la land flamingo's wings

Tar lar lar
Tar lar lar lark
Tar lar lar lark tis
Tar lar lar lark tis this

Tee lee lee
Tee lee lee leek
Tee lee lee leeks
Tee lee lee leeks yum

Ta la la
Ta la la LA
Ta la la LA!!
Ta la la LA!! Happy day!

TralalaLandiswonderfulandfun.TralalaLandisforme.TralalaLandisamazingCome,comealong!Joininthefun,joininthesilliness.Joinme,gather'roundyecrazies,thefunwon'tstoptilyoudrop.Dropyourheadsandheartstothefloor,nothinghereanymore!

_mmm....

2009-03-26T01:28:16Z

Well, I've nothing to post really. I'm working on three fics that will soon be posted here, but not until after April's started. Not that anyone reads this. It's mostly just for me.

Snow, cold as snow.

2009-03-17T06:26:45Z

I always have trouble sleeping when he's near. We are so similar, yet so very different. I guess, it'd be best described as fire and ice. We both have bad attitudes. I'm always in the thick of everything. Starting trouble when I'm bored. My Somebody, on the other hand, is always distant;in trouble, but always trying to solve the problems, or stay out of it.
I want to make the connections he can't or won't make. With only one pseudo exception. Or two, now that I think about it. He always wants to make a connection with me. I always shy away. I'm afraid he'll drown my fires with his mountains of snow and ice.
I succumb to him, as always. It is inevitable. His icy glare cuts me to the quick. Lying here, unable to sleep; I take in his hair. Silver white, like snow reflecting sunlight. Glacial blue eyes and skin the color of frozen sweet cream.
My Somebody is an indomitable snowman. Everything is cold. Not even the fire in his eyes is warm. The subzero of dry ice. His passion is cold like that. His soul is reflected through that passion and I can't escape. It is a reflection of myself, after all. But, I do have an idea of where my hot hell fires come from.
We are opposites, and I am the heat that denies himself. My unexplainable attachment to Roxas is a reflection of his inability to get close to Roxas' Somebody. But as I see the parallels between our two sets, I have to wonder I am really all that different from my Somebody.
Snow and ice so cold it burns and fires so hot they're black. Both leave scars and both are equally strong forces of nature.
I wonder when the fuel for my fires will be exhausted. Will the cold snow overtake me? When everything is over and done with, will I be reunited with my snowman and become whole again?
I never sleep well when he's near. But I wouldn't trade it for a heart. I already have half, and that's enough for me.

PuppetMaster

2009-03-16T01:42:11Z

Free as a bird, caged by my emotions. Soaring through the skies, plummeting through Hell. You laugh at my acrobatics, knowing that I am nothing more than a puppet with no strings.
PuppetMaster make my world real.
PuppetMaster make my world whole.
I serve no one, my strings've been cut... But I still long for your mechinations. Repair my untethered strings and guide me along. Freedom is worthless if it means you are not behind me. My pride screams defiance. Flight is nothing if there is no safe place to land- even sulfur pits and basalt cliffs are preferable. PuppetMaster come fix this broken puppet.

brush the SKY

2009-03-10T08:52:00Z

flying? falling? I'm not sure. my dreams and reality mix and meld more and more. adventure and action fill my thoughts, an ongoing search. my friends call my name, I hear their voices bouncing off the walls of my soul, residing within my heart. I go through much for them, I gave up everything for their safe future. when all seemed lost, they came, and I soared... or fell... I touched the never ending sky and was saved.

empty

2009-03-04T22:22:28Z

my mind's blank. nothing, nothing. slate's wiped clean. I can't find anything there. no words, no rhymes. time passes and still, nothing changes. my empty mind waits for inspiration.

Will you look back?

2009-02-13T09:37:37Z

Floating on the night sky, drifting steadily to your destination. Closer? Farther? I'm not sure anymore where I am in relation to you. Your eyes burn me; my soul soothed by the flames. Your touch chills me; my skin tamed by your fingertips. Frozen words fall, honey sweet, from your lips. I drink them in, my ears warmed by their empty promises and hollow threats. Your presence cuts me; my body craves more. Following your orders, your wishes, I am lost in the catacombs of lies. Webs of cruel smiles and heartless actions leave me tangled in my emotions... Do I have any? The more you push, the more I dig in. The harder you pull, the stronger I wish to have our positions changed. I dream of one day being your all and everything. One day, when our paths go separate ways, I wonder, will you look back for me?

Healthy!

2009-02-12T02:13:18Z

I'm not sick anymore!!!! Yay!!! And I'm almost done with taxes. Refund = new computer!!!

maikiritori @ 2009-02-04T22:05:00

2009-02-05T06:14:02Z

smilesmilesmile
So hard to keep it
trytrytry
Never seems to be enough
laughlaughlaugh
Too hard to keep it under control
crycrycry
Too easy to hide at times
thinkthinkthink
Seems to be all I do
actactact
Will I ever take action?
smilesmilesmile
I will keep it next time
trytrytry
It will be enough next time
laughlauglaugh
I won't try to control it
crycrycry
I'll let the tears fall
thinkthinkthink
I'll let my mind rest
actactact
I won't hesitate, the actions will be mine.

!!

2009-02-04T08:31:00Z

Sick again! Why? Why me? I'm amlost never sick, but look at me, twice in as many months! Not fair, I tell you!

!@$#%^%&*$@!?-\[]h><{;_h|!!!

2009-01-30T08:27:36Z

stress. stress, clawing at
my back, my throat
crawling through my intestines, racing towards a b
r eaK d

oWn

flying on the wings of snowballing problems
no relief in sight, oh god help me

fighting for myself, pride standing too tall
i can't ask for help, though i need it

clawing, cloying, tearing, ripping, pressure within building
STRESS

b r eAk doW n

just the beginning

2009-01-21T18:18:24Z

Shaking, shaking. My hands are shaking. Beating, beating, my heart is beating. Too much, too fast. My voice has hidden itself, my stomach won't stop fluttering. Butterflies, nerves, I'm so nervous. Day by day I'll have to endure. By myself, no friends or acquaintances. Socializing isn't my strong suit, what do I do? First days leave me in a spin. And this is just a first of many.

Shining Heart

2009-01-19T09:59:36Z

I love all and protect all. My duty calls for my greatest act to be selfless and I do so willingly. Darkness comes, dulling the pain in my chest. Numbing the emptiness. Still, I must protect the weak. The dark haired boy says he will protect me; why do I need protection? The dark haired girl tries so hard, she wants something. What is this feeling she talks about, I almost want to know. I just do as they say. I follow their command because nothing else compels me. Good and evil forces battle around me, my heart comes slowly back. I want it all, my heart and my memories. The battle moves within myself. Fighting the trap that was set. My Princess has been with me all along and my Knight proved himself worthy of his title. Yet, the one who worked the hardest, tried the most; she was the bravest warrior I shall ever meet. I am allowed to be selfish and myself. My Princess will get all my love. Never again will my compassion lead me down the wrong path.

This Can't Be Love

2009-01-12T00:54:51Z

Thiscan'tbelove. Because I feel so well. I get no sobs, no sighs, no sorrows. Thiscan'tbelove. I get no dizzy spells, my head is not in the sky.
~Why? Why? I don't know you, I don't like you. You meddle with thing you don't understand.~ Myheartdoesnotstandstill. Just hear it beat. This is too sweet to be love.
~It beats too fast, my lungs pause, but still, I don't like you.~
Thiscan'tbelove. Because I feel so well. But still, I love to look in your eyes.
~Your dance is disgraceful, your manner repugnant, so Why am I drawn to you?~
Myheartdoesnotstandstill. Just hear it beat, oh this is too sweet to be love.
~Why does my heart fill with hope when I think of you? Why does the thought of you make me wish to be stronger? I will protect you!~
Thiscan'tbelove. Because I feel so well, but still I love to look in your eyes.
~I will pick up my weapon and write for you. You will save us. Hope is your power and I will protect that hope with all my might.~
But still, I love to look in your eyes.
~I refuse to die, so I can spend the rest of my life by your side. I promise to never leave you. The pond's shore is now my home.~

*The song 'This Can't Be Love' is by Natalie Cole (before that, by Nat King Cole) and I don't own it. This song perfectly describes the feelings that grow in Fakhir's heart as he gets to know Duck. Yes the last three entries are Princess Tutu orientated. There will be one more. Mytho's next. Muahahahah!

pas de deux

2009-01-07T12:32:50Z

Dance a pas de deux with me, my prince.
I love you and only you. Come dance with me. Be my partner.

My love never reaches you, no matter how hard I try. You prefer the one, dressed in white, who retrieves your heart shards. I would mend your shattered heart, if you would only let me.

Tutu. Tutu. Why can't you ask for me? Why can't you call out my name? I love you. Can't you see that. From a child, you have been the only one.

If I were only different. But a crow is what I am, thought I was... Crow's blood will curse me till the end of time. Dispair, dispair. The lake's depths are calling me.

Quiet solitude, it envelopes me. I need not worry about anyone but you, my prince. Our pas de deux shall come after I have faded away.

J'taime. I dance my final dance. With you, you came for me. I will be you princess at last. You understand the burden I have lived with and you accept me. I regret all the pain I've caused you.

I love you and we shall dance our pas de deux.

forever and always

2009-01-07T01:25:43Z

The first time my eyes found you, you were sad and alone.
I wanted with my entire being to bridge the gap between out worlds. Human and nature. There seemed to be no way. I clasped my hands and prayed. I want to put a smile on your face. I want to see your eyes fill with emotion of any kind. I am small and yellow, with webb-ed feet and feathers upon my body. Even still, my heart aches at the thought of you, alone with your sad eyes. An old man asks me if I will give my life for you and I will, if I can get you the pieces of your heart. I will quest throughout this world and the next to find them all. He bestowed upon me a pendant and now I am able to achieve my aims. I am transformed, to a princess with the power to save your broken heart from the fiends who would deny you. I will dance to save you and I will dance my love for you. My feelings cannot be voiced, but I will show you through my conviction and actions. I will fight and put my life on the line to see my duty to you fulfilled. In the end my love for you will be forever and always. Forever yours and always unrequieted. My pure love for you will fill my soul with happiness and you and your princess will fly away to be happily ever after. I will go back to the place where I first met you and be content. My other love awaits and there I will stay.

New Year

2009-01-02T07:38:41Z

Looking back on this past year, there are people that I need to thank, there are people I need to let go and there are people I need to congratulate.

First, the people I need to thank; B Sapphire, for allowing me the opportunity to help her with the Sacramento anime conventions and for wanting me to help her with her grander plans when the time comes for my help. Cody, for his friendship and his gaming systems. I will come through on my end asap. The late Laura Wall, for being such a wonderful peron, and mother. The rest of the world will not know your goodness or strength, but your children will carry on for you as much as they are able. Sarah Wall, my heterosexual life-mate, for being my almost wife, pseudo husband and best friend. Marco, for teaching me, the hard way, to be patient. I wish with all my heart for this year to be filled with happiness, laughter and all things generally good for you. Brooke for your friendship. Randell for helping those around to grow and mature, and of course, for tutoring Broken Sandal ^_^.

Now the people I need to congratulate! First, my Mom, for getting a job!! It has been a hard road over the last 6 months, but you did it! Katie and Caitlyn for their babies!!! They're so cute!

Now, for the people I need to let go. I can't keep holding on, the pain isn't good for me. I'm not learning anything more from it, or you. Don't take it personally, but as a person in search of personal, spiritual and economic growth; I know I am being held back. So, Goodbye and good luck in this life and the next, Laura, Marco and Buddah.

bleh

2008-12-29T22:08:16Z

dizzy, spinney
floaty, sleepy

I hate being sick. My body doesn't work right, my mind wanders randomly.

queasy, wonky
measly, fleshy

I can't eat or breathe without pain. I wish my ailment would sail away.